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31 December 2020 @ 11:49 pm

hi! Mariah desu!!! ^___________^
yoroshiku onegaishimasu!!!!

i've f-locked all my rl posts
bec. i'm quite uncomfortable letting other people read about my life
not that there's much to read anyway, hehe...

fanfics are still public

so, i guess i have to introduce myself here?

Massu is my ichiban
Sushi love keeps me and my active brain happy!
i also do fanart once in awhile
i also do wallies and icons if i feel like it
but i'm not that good with those
i love to blab about the most random things
and i absolutely love the gheiness the JE world has to offer!!!

Chanyeol and Onew are my KPOP bias
i prefer onew to be alone
but Chanyeol with his Baekkie
Kai with his Pororo Kyungsoo
Sehun with bambi Luhan
Kris with his panda Tao
Chen with baozi Xiumin
and Grandpa Suho with dimpled Lay

so yeah, comment here to be added

layout credit to:

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Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: boku no cinderella by tegomass
08 September 2012 @ 12:31 am
Title: Hanamuke
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Baekyeol
Disclaimer: i don't own them. i wish i did.
Notes: beta-ed by lovely hotarumyst.
Summary: “I want this Baek. I want to know how good it feels like for Jongin and Kyungsoo having sex. I want to know if it’s as good as they let it out to be. I want this. I want you. Do this with me.”

Chapter 1

“I don’t sound like that. I don’t even spazz about his crazy hair and eye twitches,” Baekhyun grumbles.Collapse )

01 August 2012 @ 04:44 pm
Title: Unheard Medical Practice
Author: [info]heiryzmylisza
Rating: G
Pairing: Baekyeol
Baekhyun's sick during the MBC Beautiful Concert and Chanyeol's there to help him.
Disclaimer: I don't own them. I wish I did.

“I do not have a fetish for armpits!”Collapse )
Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: One Year Later by Jessica and Onew
27 July 2012 @ 07:02 pm
Title: Hanamuke
Author: [info]heiryzmylisza
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Baekyeol
“I want this Baek. I want to know how good it feels like for Jongin and Kyungsoo having sex. I want to know if it’s as good as they let it out to be. I want this. I want you. Do this with me.”
Disclaimer: i don't own them. i wish i did.
Notes: Smut is written by vamyreunnie. beta-ed by lovely hotarumyst.

This ain’t The Hangover where we waste ourselves to oblivionCollapse )

Current Mood: nostalgicnostalgic
Current Music: Rihanna - Where Have You Been
31 March 2010 @ 05:41 pm
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Title: Surprise
Author: [info]heiryzmylisza
Pairing: MassuTego
Rating: GP
Summary: Massu throws a surprise for Tegoshi's bday
Disclaimer: i want them but they ain't mine. lol. gotta find a way to own them somehow...

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Current Mood: amusedamused
18 October 2008 @ 08:16 pm
Title: Hugs
Author: </a></font></b></a>heiryzmylisza 
Rating: GP
Pairing: MassuTego / SuShi~♥
Summary: Tegoshi's struggling with his essay...


drabble here!Collapse )
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: love you so
28 September 2008 @ 09:39 am
Title: Jealousy
Author: heiryzmylisza 
Rating: GP
Pairing: MassuTego / SuShi~♥
Summary: Massu's jealous...a crappy summary for a crappy drabble...

Massu never really knew how he ended up being overwhelmed by this emotion. It was so foreign to him that when he first felt it there, he just dismissed it within a heartbeat. But then, things kept on happening making the unknown feeling already an acquaintance. So as he chews on his gyoza that late afternoon watching his boyfriend narrate things so enthusiastically about his stay at Ryo’s place 3 days ago, Massu welcomes once again his friend named Jealousy.


“Well, I was really surprised when I woke up Massu. Ryotan was just there beside me. Plus, he really took care of me during my stay there. He’d give me food every once in a while and ask if I was feeling okay or comfortable. Isn’t he just sweet?” Tegoshi blabs on not noticing Massu’s discomfort and slight irritation at the subject.


“Yeah, well, he’s really just nice ne? Oh, have I told you about the nice new girl at the radio station? She’s just new there and she’s really pretty,” Massu tries to change the subject. “Oh, I’m sure she is Massu. Oh yeah, Ryotan also gave me a back massage before I took a shower…” and Massu just smiles as he desperately tries to cover up the hurt he is feeling inside. It would’ve been okay to him really if only he hasn’t heard the same story for the nth time that week, and it only happened three effing days ago. But what hurts the most is that Tegoshi confessed to him that he almost fell for the guy before.


“Is there something wrong Massu?” Tegoshi finally asks as he notices Massu’s sudden change in mood. “It’s nothing, I’m just thinking about something,” Massu lies. In truth, the pain he’s feeling is already killing him inside. He didn’t realize that jealousy could make him feel so much pain all at once. “Ah…you wanna go out and walk for a while?” Tegoshi asks and Massu just nods barely before standing up to leave.


“What do you want to do Massu?” Tegoshi tries to make a conversation as Massu walks silently beside him. Massu being unenergetic is something he isn’t used to see. “I don’t know… it’s up to you,” Massu answers. “Oh, uhm… do you want to go to the arcade? You can finally have your chance at beating me in racing,” Tegoshi says and changes direction heading towards the nearest arcade center. Massu is about to agree but he just was not in the mood to play any stupid games. “Let’s just have some coffee?” he suggests half-heartedly making Tegoshi agree immediately.


“What’s wrong with you Massu?” Tegoshi asks concernedly. “It’s nothing,” Massu answers as he sips his Choco Mint coffee. “Please be okay, smile for me now will you?” Tegoshi asks as he peers up at Massu, his smile inviting. Massu smiles, an obviously fake one but at least it was enough to make Tegoshi stop.


A few minutes later, Massu actually feels like he’s already cheering up. But then, Tegoshi excitedly pipes up when he sees Yamapi walking at the other side of the street. Massu suddenly remembers Tegoshi’s liking for their leader and he feels jealousy bubble up again within him in a matter of milliseconds. “You’re really fast ne? at spotting Yamapi in any place,” Massu tries to joke around. “Yeah well, I guess so,” Tegoshi replies missing Massu’s pained look. Tegoshi you idiot…that’s not the right answer…Massu thought as he looks away from the window, jealousy overflowing in his aching heart.


“Hey love,” Tegoshi calls out. Massu ignores it but Tegoshi’s persistent and calls him like that again. So Massu decides to send a glare to Tegoshi but was welcomed with a hearty laugh from the latter. Massu gives up then and continues walking towards the bus stop. Tegoshi finally catches up with him and holds his hand. “Who do I love?” Tegoshi asks, a glint of amusement in his eyes. “I don’t know,” Massu truthfully answers. “Eh?! Do you want me to shout out who?” Tegoshi jokingly threatens. “Me… you love me…” Massu answers with a tone of defeat. “Right,” Tegoshi happily says and kisses Massu’s cheek in adoration.


Massu chews on his lower lip stopping all his emotions from spilling out. it’s not enough, these words aren’t enough anymore. He’s jealous and he’s God damn aware of it but he can’t as very well tell it to Tegoshi. No, he can’t do that so he’ll just have to keep it all inside and act like it doesn’t matter. “I need to go,” Massu blurts out as his bus came. “Okay, take care ne?” Tegoshi says and Massu just climbs in the airconditioned bus his heart still heavy with all the jealousy.


Then a text message comes in, a short quote about how to tell your lover that you’re jealous already. He laughs about it and decides not to delete it. He thinks that maybe ne day he might have enough courage to forward it to Tegoshi. But then he knows Tegoshi wouldn’t take it all seriously so he ends up laughing bitterly about it. Knowing fully well that Jealousy might be there to stay.



-------~~~ ♥ ♥ ♥ ~~~-------


How do you tell the one you love

That you’re already jealous?


It’s hard right?


It’s like this…


You hug them tight and then whisper,


“Just say their name one more time and I’ll kill you”




A/N: a crappy drabble? i know...
it's as crappy as the way i felt it yesterday...
it's stupid to write a fic based on it
but i just have to let it out somehow...
so, yeah, i guess it ended up here...
gomen ne...

anyway, comments are still accepted...

yoroshiku onegaishimasu...




Current Mood: jealousjealous
Current Music: i turn to you
16 September 2008 @ 06:45 pm
Title: Crawling Back to You
Rating: GP
Pairing: MassuTego
Summary: Massu's done something wrong, he needs his Tegoshi back
Disclaimer: i don't own them. i wish i did.
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Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: crawling back to you- BSB
22 July 2008 @ 03:08 pm
Title: Sacrifice
Pairing: MassuTego / TegoMass
Rating: GP
Summary: Tegoshi doesn't know what sacrificing means until he met Massu
Disclaimer: My ownership over these lovely and talented boys, which are the cause of my rated fantasies lol., is still under negotiation. Johnny wants a 100 mil USD for each, and I told him I'll just go and kick his ass I'll go save up and buy SuShi from him.
Notes: beta-ed by the wonderful shini_no_shisha, thank you so much for your hard work!!! ^_____________^

Current Mood: busybusy
Current Music: closer by ne-yo